That’s how this ends.
How this was always going to end.
We’ll become those people.
Those people everyone gossips about.
‘What? Those two? Nah, they’re not together anymore. Don’t know why. Maybe cheating? He seems too nice. Probably her. She’s a real sour-faced bint. Uppity, you know. Likes to run rings round people with big words. Probably to hide the fact that she makes up her job as she goes along. But he’s nice. Real salt of the earth type. I wanted to set him up with a friend but…She got him still. Got her claws in him. Something about childhood trauma and they’ve got a son together. Gorgeous. Eyes just like his dad.
(She is crying again.)
Big and honest. When he laughs it’s like his whole being laughs, he laughs from the corners of his eyes down to his tippie toes. I wish he’d date again. But she really broke his heart. Keeps breaking his heart. Won’t let him in, won’t let him go. It’s sad. They’re definitely still in love with each other. They’re probably still fucking each other. But they just, you know, love misery more.’
People died because my brother had given up on life and when he got tired of hacking people to pieces, he blew himself up.
How do I apologise for that?
How am I supposed to apologise for something like that?
Something I could never do, never in my darkest moments.
Something I had no part in, that I had no idea was going to happen, that I am still struggling to get my head round.
Do you understand?
My baby brother, who used to sleep in my bed when he was scared.
My brother, who I watched grow up.
My brother, who I thought would outlive me.
He’s just done.
And he took as many people as he could with him.
And I don’t know why.
I will never really know why.
And I have to live with that.
That’s suffering enough.
That’s pain enough.
I’m working on some stuff at the moment, so I might not be able to post long forms. But I will share some snippets. Enjoy!
Pastor stares out into the congregation.
Pastor Joe: Death has a great way of ruining people’s lives. But also uniting them, in their ruin.
Guy: (whispering) What kind of priest is this?
Dad: He’s progressive.
Guy: He’s a fucking mood killer.
Freddie: He’s a priest. What were you expecting? Michael Macintyre to perform the obituary?
Guy: Fuck off.
Dad: You fuck off. It’s a fucking funeral. It’s supposed to be sad. So sit there, feel something, and stop being a prick!
(Company no: [REDACTED])
Minutes of a meeting of the directors of the Company held at [REDACTED] ON [REDACTED] at [REDACTED].
- Preliminary Matters
[REDACTED] was appointed chairwoman of the meeting. The chairwoman noted that the meeting had not been duly convened and that only a handful of board members were present. Chairwoman noted that on any other occasion this meeting would not have been authorised, but given [REDACTED]’s, (hence forth known as Dr. A) concerns, the meeting was declared open.
- Business of the Meeting
The chairman reported that the business of the meeting was to:
2.1. Discuss the recent spate of incidents in the East facility.
Dr.A acknowledged that the incidents that have occurred are not common to the experiment and that the volatile situation in East Block may be because that facility houses the longest running test subjects. As a result, the statistics are skewed dramatically in that direction. Equally the test subjects involved (17 in total) have reached a level of maturity that previous test subjects had not. He asked that the board consider whether the facility is equipped to deal with the condition in this adult stage of its manifestation.
[REDACTED], hence forth known as RDG, enquired as to why Dr. A did not submit incident reports until the most recent incident (in which 1543 was subdued and detonated. See Incident Report 1543 9C). Dr. A informed the board that East Block Management did not want to jeopardise the experiment.
Dr. A urged the board to seriously consider removing East Block from the Experiment, or at least from the control of Senior Management.
It was agreed that the experiment would continue, but concentrating only on East Block.
It was not decided whether the other Test Subjects in Blocks North, South and West would be let go or destroyed.
Dr. A reported growing concern amongst the facilitators about the length of the experiment and whether at this point the extended incarceration of the test subjects is leading to the volatile situation. He argued that this was jeopardising the work done so far. RDG stated that overall the board was not happy with the facilitators in East Block, since the projected progress of the experiment has not been met.
[REDACTED], henceforth known as QA, suggested gutting the staff of East Block completely and starting again with fresh eyes.
Dr. A strongly condemned this form of action, stating that a huge change like that could make the situation in East Block even more chaotic. He added that, given the nature of the experiment, the time and effort it would take to find and train a new set of facilitators would extend the experiment beyond its three year projection and push the test subjects to breaking point.
RDG reminded Dr. A that the test subjects had forfeited their rights when they signed up to the experiment.
Dr. A then disclosed some information about the East Block test subjects that led to the meeting being promptly adjourned.
Given the information discovered, concerning the ethics of the test subjects in East Block’s surrender, the chairwoman declared the meeting closed. It was agreed that a meeting would be held once a an investigation into Senior Management at East Block was completed.